AIM Graduation Tomorrow

AIM Graduation Tomorrow

Dear all,

Tomorrow I will be officially graduate from AIM (Asian Institute Of Ministries) a short term bible school program of my church, recognized by BCM (Bible College of Malaysia) . Yesterday was the day I received my final allowance from my dad, which also means that he will no longer support me financially because I told him that I want to work, even serving God in ministries, in church. He is not in favor with it, inclusive of the idea of me going to bible school, even though he is a believer himself, believing in the same God yet from a different perspective of God and how He works due to different denominational background. I am from the Assemblies of God, while he is from the Brethren background.

Anyway, what makes this more difficult is that my mom is a person very against anything that has to do with Christianity. She only takes religion as something to benefit herself, yet not something to devote to. She is an unbeliever. Because of her, I cannot attend church on Sundays, except when she is not around on that day, or whenever I can find an opportunity to go, I will. I even lied to her just to create an opportunity to attend church on some occasions. I know this isn't God's way so I’m not encouraging anyone to do what I did.

Right now I just consider this as a perfect timing that my dad gave my final allowance due to the reason that I will be an official AIM graduate tomorrow. I know this day will come and I’m quite prepared for it. Pastor Steven (My Youth Pastor, President of AIM and the Chairman of BCM) has asked me whether I’m serious in taking up the Living Sacrifice program – a one year program where the church will bring me to whatever ministries that need people, serving the church for one year as probation for being a fulltime staff for my church. As what I’ve mentioned in my previous posts, I have been checking my heart for a long time and I am very certain that I have the desire to serve God in wherever He leads me. This desire has been in my heart for quite a few years, and I do not have the passion to work in any secular jobs, meaning being a businessman or anything but only ministries. I do not know what my calling is, thus I joined AIM in order to receive ministry training and theology education, and also to by myself time to seek God in order to find out what He actually wants me to do. Now without the financial aid of my dad, it actually gives me the opportunity to trust God in giving me a job to finance myself, and also for training me to do whatever He wants me to do. Please be in prayer for me, as I know I need that badly. I’ve been praying for months, or even years for this but right now I still have not got any answer from Him yet. Please also pray that He'll provide me enough financially as what I heard about the Living Sacrifice program is that it doesn't give people salary, but only allowance which isn't quite much. I do not work for God because of this financial reason but to serve Him, yet I also cannot survive if I do not have enough to pay for my daily living. Really appreciate it if any of you can pray for me.

In Him,
~Lawence~